Ok so I have decided to tackle one of those topics that I just don’t really feel fully prepared for. Of course my computer wants to misbehave and ding at me instead of record my brilliant observations. I figure if I am going to put myself out there on the internet and talk about being fat I have to expect that people are going to think I speak for fat people in general. Umm No I speak for me! I can only guess what other fat people think, do or know, just like you. I also get a little irritated when somebody gets up on their soap box and says I speak for fat people or women or any other group that I belong to. Yeah I get it! If we are all speaking for ourselves to the world what you get is noise and no clear message. So here goes, this is what I believe about fat people. I believe that everybody has the right to respect and equal opportunities.
So hopefully I am feeling pretty good about myself this morning. I am in the pool swimming and getting splashed in the face! Hmmm! I’m not going to moan this morning mostly because that usually involves me providing you with a Link Storm and I have nothing! I have a bunch of half finished articles, lots of great pictures and no links. Cyberspace is letting me down! Well we did have our first frost this weekend and that can mean only one thing. Time to decorate for Halloween! Uhm for everybody else! I need to do some shopping my old decorations are past their prime and my lights don’t work anymore. Oh and kids it really sucks when I buy you $100 worth of gummy bears which I hate and you don’t show up. That stuff is hard as a rock if you try to save it for the next year. I’ve tried! What is the deal with being over-run one year and then no takers the next?
So you envy those nutty people that workout in the morning and arrive at work all chipper and ready to go. Well I am one of those people most of the time. Sometimes I lose my morning mojo, but I am determined to get it back. It just makes everything else easier!! I’m working on getting myself to the pool for 5AM from now on. I did it in the past with great success and even now when I do accomplish it I feel much better and have less pain from my injuries. It seems I have lost some of my early morning mojo. I Wake up on time but I don’t get up! I bargain and make promises to myself and change my mind.
I was reading a post written by Christine at A Deliberate Life on F.E.A.R. (how to kick it in the @ss) and well I got an uncomfortable wake up call. She talked about “If I had anxiety, I avoided the situation” and “I had created a safe circle from which I could scurry out, grab what would maintain a minimum existence, and then I would scurry back home.”. Ah Oh!! I often joke that I am Gollum from The Lord of the Rings. I drag what I need into my cave/home and guard my precious/recliner. Just like the ring my recliner is my reward and comfort but also my prison as is my house. I find I am very reluctant to participate in dinners and extra activities making the excuse that my hernia and food problems just make it too difficult. I wonder how bad my hernia flair ups would really be if I dealt with my anxiety better.
Hey it’s Mooday not Moanday ‘cause I’m drinking my milk. I know milk was designed to make little baby cows into monster heffers as fast as possible. The thing is there is one thing my tummy always gets along with and that is milk so it is my go to breakfast drink as morning is the time my stomach is its most grumbly! Anyway don’t let me waste your day gabbing about my various ailments. It’s sunny here are the air is fresh so when you can get outside today and enjoy. Today I am bringing to you the best of Fitboggin 12. I didn’t attend as I am new to this blogging thing and I don’t usually know what’s going on until it is over. Kind of like air shows. You never find out there is one until some massive bomber buzzes by your house. I guess they don’t buzz more of a rumble! Here is a write up of what happened at the “When you Have a Lot to Lose” talk. I am addicted to people’s success stories and struggles so I enjoyed this article. There was a great group participation talk on Self Acceptance. The hosts passed … Continue reading
Stop trying to spell check me! I’m Canadian and the word is metre!!!!!So I finished the “Run For The Cure”. Rusty kept me on the trail which proved a little difficult as we had a mix of runners, walkers, dogs, children and strollers for the first kilometer even though we deliberately started late to give the runners a head start. I hate to be a grouch, but some of us are the walking wounded and are not going to bounce right back from a collision. I don’t even want to think what would happen to a child. Next year I am starting 10 minutes late rather than 5 and hoping for less bouncing around from the runners. Anyway less crabbiness more Yea Haw I walked 5K!! I have been a real drama queen about this wondering if I could finish this walk. I resolved that I was going to bail on the race if I had any problems and that was just going to have to be good enough. Well you know it wasn’t so bad. Kind of thrilling to walk through the finish line like one of those pros you see on TV! I tried to do a Rocky … Continue reading
I saw a quote today that helped define for me a phenomenon I have seen all my life but did not recognize. I would ask a rather sheltered friend of mine what he believed about this or that and he often replied that he was raised to believe one thing or another. I was always shocked that he had not questioned what he was taught. He was not a fan of reading or research and he was not really that interested in the other points of view. He had a set of answers that worked in the life he led and that was good enough for him. Later on in my life I began to run into people that had put a great deal of time into research of various kinds. When I would express my opinion on an area they felt they knew a lot about some people would talk over me and drowned me out in order to give me their expert opinion on the topic. Sometimes they were so busy giving their opinion that they actually failed to correctly identify the topic of my original conversation. I would be frustrated but also gave their argument greater weight because … Continue reading
This morning I was not at my best working out with my trainer. Oops! Positivity! Uh, it wasn’t even close to being my worst workout. My positive attitude lasted right up until the half way point when I got tired. That’s when I started paying a lot of attention to how hard the exercises were and how much I had left to do and how hot and sweaty I was. I began to think there was no way I could do all this and besides I didn’t want to do it and it was hard. At that is when my stomach decided to revolt. I have a lot of tummy troubles and it is a real barometer for what is going on in my head. It is also a great cop out when I get negative. Am I really feeling too green to do more or am I using it as an excuse! Anyway at this point I stopped and took a rest but was now convinced that I could not reset and get back in the game. Yep! I got exactly what I expected.My trainer switched me over to my go to exercise that I am always certain I … Continue reading