The Self-Hate Thing

I have been meaning to write about self-hate for a while, but I just have not felt really qualified to speak on the topic.  I have had people tell me that I don’t like myself or that I have low self-esteem.  I think maybe they are making an assumption based on the way I look.  I am a complainer maybe that is what they see.  I also make jokes about the indignities of being fat.  I find it funny.  Maybe my sense of humour is warped.  The thing is that I really like myself.  I would rather be slim and in the best shape possible, but I don’t really see this body I live in as being a big part of the definition of who I am.  I just consider it the house I live in.  On the outside it needs a lot of work because it has been neglected but that is just cosmetic.  The foundation is rock solid.  The interior is clever and artistic and colourful and well really pretty amazing!

Bluesday Link Storm

This is the first day of the work week for Canadians so instead of Moanday Links Storm we are having a Bluesday Link Storm! If you are looking for unique fitness clothing, shoes, fitness equipment, music, nutrition and food or  new exercise ideas you may want to go to the CanFit Pro Consumer Fitness and Wellness show at the Metro Toronto Convention Centre on Saturday, August 18th from 8:30AM to 5:30PM for free.  Just follow the link below and on the upper right it says Free Ticket.  Fill out the form and bring it with you to the show.  I have been in the past and had a great time.  I was in love with the yoga wear on sale.  Sorry they generally only go up to size large.  The fitness and dance demonstrations are amazing.  You can participate in the demonstrations just be aware that most people that are at this event are fitness pros so they are going to be able to follow along with little instruction.  There is a lot of fitness equipment to try on for size and talks by your favorite fitness personalities. http://www.canfitpro.com/en/trade-show The Huffington Post has a great on-line series of article called Becoming … Continue reading

Therese Unplugged

Therese is one of the amazing Yise women who has changed my life for the better.  She is astoundingly open with and accepting of her own faults as well as others.  I can always count on Therese to tell it like it is.  Which usually has me at least, bug eyed and jaw dropped!  Everybody should have a friend like Therese! From as far back as childhood I have struggled with my identity, I never felt I fitted in anywhere, a square peg in a round hole.

Kryptonite Part 2

Food is my kryptonite.   My relationship with food is complex and dysfunctional.  It has been that way most of my life.  I have messed around with food for so many years that I have no sense of hunger nor do I recall ever having that feeling.  Now that I have a hernia my stomach will let me know it has been too long since I have eaten by giving me heartburn.  I do get very persistent cravings which can last for many hours regardless of what I eat or do not eat.  I am often almost paralyzed in my inability to select food that will satisfy my needs.  This is because simple nutrition is not the only need that food meets.

Kryptonite!

Uhhhhhh!  Woof, Woof, Woof! Breath! OK.  Today I’m going to talk about the thing that scares me.  But first I’ll talk around the edges of the topic.  Then I’ll hint at the topic and run away to some other slightly related story.  Then maybe I’ll pull off the scab and say it.  People say I am brave for actually putting my real weight on this web site and putting up a picture of myself in a swimsuit.  That is nothing!  Here it is my personal kryptonite.  I am a binge eater! Wow!  I am shaky!  I usually avoid talking about food because I have so much anxiety about it.  I’m sure anybody that has had a weight problem can relate to this.

A TRAINER’S JOURNEY

  Today I have my first guest post.  I harassed my personal trainer and confessor Javier into writing an article for me.  Yeah!!  I admit I am a challenge, between being afraid of some exercises and physically limited plus generally mouthy, the man rises above and gets the results.  I thinks its mind altering drugs myself that keeps him going!  Thanks Javier!!

The Call of the Recliner

For the past six months I have been involved in dysfunctional relationship … with a Lazy Boy recliner.  Much of the day is spent thinking about my recliner and the comfort it will offer me once I get home.  Pure bliss!! When I get home it is “Out of the way cat!”  … bathroom … toss the work clothes and flop into the big warm embrace of my recliner.  Once I am in, it is like the pull of quicksand, I am not getting out.  All around my chair I have a large collection of every possible item I might need so that I will not have to go through the agony of leaving my chair.

You’re doing it all wrong!

I’m sure you have heard the saying that “a little bit of knowledge is a dangerous thing”.  Well that is my topic for today.  People have a tendency to become very invested in the bit of knowledge they have and are unable to see that there are other ways of doing things and other experiences out there. My personal pet peeve is when I am discussing a success I have had in some area of my life and I get the “You are doing it all wrong”.  I had success, how can it be all wrong.  Ahh, I didn’t do things the same way as my companion did.  I got from point A to B by a different route and apparently my way is full of as yet unidentified pit falls.  It can be frustrating trying to get a person to understand that you are different than they are and that what works for them may not work for me.  Their path may be shorter and smoother for most but maybe not for me.