FEAR

I was reading a post written by Christine at A Deliberate Life on F.E.A.R. (how to kick it in the @ss) and well I got an uncomfortable wake up call.  She talked about “If I had anxiety, I avoided the situation” and “I had created a safe circle from which I could scurry out, grab what would maintain a minimum existence, and then I would scurry back home.”.  Ah Oh!! I often joke that I am Gollum from The Lord of the Rings.  I drag what I need into my cave/home and guard my precious/recliner.  Just like the ring my recliner is my reward and comfort but also my prison as is my house.  I find I am very reluctant to participate in dinners and extra activities making the excuse that my hernia and food problems just make it too difficult.  I wonder how bad my hernia flair ups would really be if I dealt with my anxiety better.

Mooday Link Storm Oct 1 2012

Hey it’s Mooday not Moanday ‘cause I’m drinking my milk.  I know milk was designed to make little baby cows into monster heffers as fast as possible.  The thing is there is one thing my tummy always gets along with and that is milk so it is my go to breakfast drink as morning is the time my stomach is its most grumbly!  Anyway don’t let me waste your day gabbing about my various ailments.  It’s sunny here are the air is fresh so when you can get outside today and enjoy. Today I am bringing to you the best of Fitboggin 12.  I didn’t attend as I am new to this blogging thing and I don’t usually know what’s going on until it is over.  Kind of like air shows.  You never find out there is one until some massive bomber buzzes by your house.  I guess they don’t buzz more of a rumble! Here is a write up of what happened at the “When you Have a Lot to Lose” talk.  I am addicted to people’s success stories and struggles so I enjoyed this article. There was a great group participation talk on Self Acceptance.  The hosts passed … Continue reading

I Walked 5 Kilometres!

Stop trying to spell check me!  I’m Canadian and the word is metre!!!!!So I finished the “Run For The Cure”.  Rusty kept me on the trail which proved a little difficult as we had a mix of runners, walkers, dogs, children and strollers for the first kilometer even though we deliberately started late to give the runners a head start.  I hate to be a grouch, but some of us are the walking wounded and are not going to bounce right back from a collision.  I don’t even want to think what would happen to a child.  Next year I am starting 10 minutes late rather than 5 and hoping for less bouncing around from the runners. Anyway less crabbiness more Yea Haw I walked 5K!!  I have been a real drama queen about this wondering if I could finish this walk.  I resolved that I was going to bail on the race if I had any problems and that was just going to have to be good enough.  Well you know it wasn’t so bad.  Kind of thrilling to walk through the finish line like one of those pros you see on TV! I tried to do a Rocky … Continue reading

Moanday Link Storm Sept. 10, 2012

Ahh!  We are enjoying are first cool days leading into fall.  This is my favourite time of the year.  I am not a fan of being hot and sweaty every time I leave the house.  In the fall you can go out for a long walk and never get over-heated.  The air is generally not smelly because somebodies garbage is baking in the sun.  Where I live fall seems to be a sunny windy time of the year and I am just fine with that.  Also big plus I usually sleep well with the cooler temperatures. Sigh!  Now I see the list of links I wanted to share today and it just doesn’t fit how I feel right now.  Neither does the image I have planned for this post.  Usually I need a lot of coffee on Moanday morning.  Not this morning! Our first article is from Huffington Post’s Soul Talk series.  “Who do you hate?”  This is one of those topics of which there are many that make me realize I must be different.  I have only hated two people in my entire life.  One of those only lasted about a week before the person was forgotten.  You really … Continue reading

Positive Thinking

This morning I was not at my best working out with my trainer.  Oops! Positivity!  Uh, it wasn’t even close to being my worst workout.  My positive attitude lasted right up until the half way point when I got tired.  That’s when I started paying a lot of attention to how hard the exercises were and how much I had left to do and how hot and sweaty I was.  I began to think there was no way I could do all this and besides I didn’t want to do it and it was hard.  At that is when my stomach decided to revolt.  I have a lot of tummy troubles and it is a real barometer for what is going on in my head.  It is also a great cop out when I get negative.  Am I really feeling too green to do more or am I using it as an excuse!  Anyway at this point I stopped and took a rest but was now convinced that I could not reset and get back in the game.  Yep!  I got exactly what I expected.My trainer switched me over to my go to exercise that I am always certain I … Continue reading

It Ain’t High School Gym Class

At one time you were a 17 year old high school geek praying it wasn’t going to be square dancing day or yoga day or gymnastics day in gym class.  You hoped you were not picked last for team sports and that you were invisible when changing in the locker room.  Most people had the same experience in gym class.  There was something you were not good at and the potential for embarrassing debacles was high. That’s right you have spent years erasing that 17 year old twit from your memory.  You’re a responsible adult that others look to for guidance.  You don’t stammer and stutter your way through a meeting.  You are clear, concise and effective.  So how come that 17 year old is the one making your decisions about fitness?  I can’t join a health club! I won’t fit in!  I won’t know what to do!  People will look at me and laugh behind my back!

Moanday Link Storm Aug. 20 2012

Moandays are always such brain foggy days.  It is hard to get anything going.  I painted my toenails last night in the dark.  They look like some 6 year olds fingerpainting project.  Today is a good day for mindlessly pushing data around.  Maybe if I am lucky the right answer will pop out the other end of this computer by accident. Here is a link to Jack Sh*t Gettin’ Fit.  People seem to like his web site.  It is certainly unique.  http://jackfit.blogspot.ca/ Here is another really good site particularly if you are a meat eater. Mark’s Daily Apple  This article is about high fat diets relationship to Type 2 Diabetes.  Scientists used non-foods on mice to make coclusions about humans, pretty much guarenteeing they got the results they were looking for.  Urgh!! http://www.marksdailyapple.com/does-a-high-fat-diet-cause-type-2-diabetes/#axzz241eBxx62 Ranchers turn to feeding cattles old candy instead of expensive corn. http://www.theweathernetwork.com/news/storm_watch_stories3&stormfile=Rancher_turns_to_candy_for_a_sweet_solution_to_high_feed_prices_16_08_2012?ref=ccbox_weather_topstories  

Oxytocin Could Boost Social Sensitivity

I was doing a little research for an article titled “Sex will kill you! 100% Guaranteed” and I came upon an interesting study on Oxytocin. The study is titled “The Oxytocin enhances pupil dilation and sensitivity to ‘hidden’ emotional expressions.”  Here’s the link. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22648957 and here’s a quote “the hormone may act on the brain by literally focusing visual attention on important social information and making it seem more distinct. But the effect was most pronounced in people who started out with difficulty reading social cues.”