I haven’t written for a while. I’m tired! I’m cranky! I’m bored! I want somebody else to make it all better. I don’t want to do this and I don’t want to do that and I don’t want to eat anything healthy. I’m having a full on temper tantrum so I am going to sit and stew about it.
OK it isn’t really all that bad. It’s just the fall is my time of the year when I feel my best and I haven’t been feeling my best and I don’t want to take responsibility for it yet. I would rather blame it all on the construction next door (12 hours a day, 7 days a week and their generator running slobs that drove a cement truck back and forth over my lawn and they put the porta-potty under my bedroom window so I smell it.) Also I hurt my back showing off. Usually when things go bad I figure they are unlikely to get worse so I get a little happy. This time I am just wallowing in the sh*t or at least smelling it (OK, I made them move the pooper).
Yeah I’m not done complaining! I thought I was but, NOPE! I have lost my entire summer. No, sitting in the backyard which is filled with blowing dust and white stucco snow (I can imagine my gutters on the roof are full). No BBQs beside the sputtering generator. Basically weekends you have to run away from home or wear noise cancelling headphones all day. OK!!! ENOUGH!!! No more complaining! It doesn’t get me anyplace good. Time to reclaim my favorite time of the year. Time to take care of my back. Time to get my own work done on my house since we are making messes anyways. Time to stop medicating myself into a stupor with chocolate (no wonder I’ve been tired, cranky and lazy). Ugh! Now I have a headache! I may not be done with my tantrum just yet!
This is when I’m supposed to be writing down all the things I’m grateful for isn’t it? Better make it an extra long list today and no cheating and looking at the stuff I’ve said before.