Food is my kryptonite. My relationship with food is complex and dysfunctional. It has been that way most of my life. I have messed around with food for so many years that I have no sense of hunger nor do I recall ever having that feeling. Now that I have a hernia my stomach will let me know it has been too long since I have eaten by giving me heartburn. I do get very persistent cravings which can last for many hours regardless of what I eat or do not eat. I am often almost paralyzed in my inability to select food that will satisfy my needs. This is because simple nutrition is not the only need that food meets.
Uhhhhhh! Woof, Woof, Woof! Breath! OK. Today I’m going to talk about the thing that scares me. But first I’ll talk around the edges of the topic. Then I’ll hint at the topic and run away to some other slightly related story. Then maybe I’ll pull off the scab and say it. People say I am brave for actually putting my real weight on this web site and putting up a picture of myself in a swimsuit. That is nothing! Here it is my personal kryptonite. I am a binge eater! Wow! I am shaky! I usually avoid talking about food because I have so much anxiety about it. I’m sure anybody that has had a weight problem can relate to this.
Today I have my first guest post. I harassed my personal trainer and confessor Javier into writing an article for me. Yeah!! I admit I am a challenge, between being afraid of some exercises and physically limited plus generally mouthy, the man rises above and gets the results. I thinks its mind altering drugs myself that keeps him going! Thanks Javier!!
On Mondays I will be providing links to any interesting articles I have read (many of the links came from my in-house researcher Havva) Read about Super Hero Yoga Here It looks like a lot of fun! Which Diet Works? – NY Times Click Here High Intensity is Key for Both Cardio and Weight Benefits – Dr. Mercola Click Here Newly-discovered “beige fat” cells provide a new target in the fight against obesity – Gizmag Click Here Obesity related to when in the day food is consumed Click Here
For many years there was one rule that could not be broken. Nobody is seeing me in a bathing suit ever! Well when I joined the gym 5 years ago at 446 Lbs there was not a lot of exercises or machines I could work out on. There was certainly no getting down on the floor for some crunches because there was no guarantee I would be able to get back up. It only made sense that the pool was the place I belonged. My first few months I wore a regular one piece bathing suit with bike shorts underneath and a bra. The bike shorts and even the bathing suit didn’t hold up too well to swimming and soaking in the spa every day. I probably looked more conspicuos with my extra layers than if I had just dressed in a regular swimsuit.
A couple years ago I was pushing myself pretty hard lifting weights under the direction of my trainer. I was tired and whining as is my way and the trainer told me to just keep going and enjoy the endorphins. I gave him the look. You know the one! On a side note, it does my heart good when I guy suddenly realizes he is in danger and he gets that stunned look on his face as his body kicks into fight or flight and you are the person who put that look there! Let me explain why my trainer almost died. I am all about fair play so if I am due some prize for busting my butt lifting weights somebody had better make sure I get my prize. To my knowledge I have never experienced endorphins or “runners high”. If running is required to capture these endorphins then I see where the problem is and I’ll pass on the prize thanks! So how do I get my fair share of endorphins? Is this a myth made up by people who like to see fat chicks run?
That fountain of knowledge Havva has done it again. She sent me an excellent article (Link to Article) which is a review of a study of 50,994 adults over 6 years. The conclusion of the study was that it is much more unhealthy to be underweight than to be over-weight or even severely obese. The article also says that BMI (Body Mass Index) is a poor measurement of obesity as it does not account for the fact that people are three dimensional. “During the study period, the “underweight” subjects showed a risk of death no less than twice as high as the “normal” participants.” “It was considerably safer to be “severely obese”: the people in this category were just 1.26 times as likely to die as “normals”.” “People who were merely “obese” or “overweight” didn’t suffer from diabetes or hypertension any more than “normal” people, and ran no increased risks.”
For the past six months I have been involved in dysfunctional relationship … with a Lazy Boy recliner. Much of the day is spent thinking about my recliner and the comfort it will offer me once I get home. Pure bliss!! When I get home it is “Out of the way cat!” … bathroom … toss the work clothes and flop into the big warm embrace of my recliner. Once I am in, it is like the pull of quicksand, I am not getting out. All around my chair I have a large collection of every possible item I might need so that I will not have to go through the agony of leaving my chair.